one step closer...

well i was sitting and i understood what i want to do with my life...well not exactly what.. but.. i know that i want to do somethinf creative, work with people, make something.. well i know that i do not want to study mathematics...so ot`s one step closer , i guess.. I think it will be so difficult to work behind the desk all day for the rest of my life..i want to start new projects, do something usefull..

i was thinking about becoming a chef, but i do not know any good cooking school.. and for those ather fields witch includes creativity, working with people and doing something useful, i can not come up with a proffesion which includes all that [ I DO NOT WANT TO BE A TEACHER :D ] ... so i`m thinking to talk to my teacher next week, and hopefully she will help me...

and i`m sorry that i can`t put pictures in my blog..there is something wrong.. :/

the picture that i wanted to put is here:           http://www.google.lv/imgres?imgurl=https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6TWliuDkIyHshfUBhfFNalmqmNv8GgfOGe_HidQMXXsPPLlPffLVFw25iGy161hMtQ2NEJpQ73yzsHXj7XMuCm5IDXWOkm83yBokyz8K9DRZYbIrnaXM69R4C0OpIWAsT6DQ_9DFDPr0/s400/descisions.jpg&imgrefurl=http://dailydemotivators.blogspot.com/2009/06/descisions.html&usg=__IU6WpjtawbK_vQFYcKpRwXHrL1k=&h=400&w=286&sz=22&hl=lv&start=2&zoom=1&tbnid=RnwhMPPIttsjXM:&tbnh=124&tbnw=89&prev=/images%3Fq%3Ddescisions%26um%3D1%26hl%3Dlv%26sa%3DN%26biw%3D1020%26bih%3D974%26tbs%3Disch:1&um=1&itbs=1


but feeling happy...one step forward (sun)

need to post something

and i have no idea what to write :D

well i`m watching ECLIPSE now and  there is this scene where Jacob is shirtless :D as always..and this remined me about that joke, where Taylor Lautner talks to his producers with shirt on and says- dudes, i can`t work like this (or something like that)  :D GIT IT?>?? :D :D because his shirt is on :D oh i find that joke (or picture :D ) 

well this thing about twilight.. :D i need to make a project in english of movement of protest, and i foound one good example :D it`s called- TWILIGHT RUINED COMIC CON :D 

well i was so suprised, WTH twilight was doing on COMIC CON???like seriously???WHY??? i like twilight and stuff, but i`m strat to think that they`re trying to be everywhere :D 

ok, i will stop talk about twilight :D 

fun fact- i broke my lamp today :D i was cleaning my room and just failed... oh well.. but anyhow..i think it`s time to go to bed :D

and another thing- i have not done my homeworks yet and my brother laughed at me today- hahah you have only one day left in you break :D

they just don`t care :D

hahaha...funny story... almost noone reads my blog :D

but like seriously..when i started bloggong [ or whatever it`s called] it wasn`t ment to be like some huge popular blog, but i thaught naybe someone will read it... and well.. as i`m watching my statistics.. there is like not more then 5 people each day who reads my blog, and i`m sure, that almost no one reads the articles.. They just press that NEXT BLOG button and  don`t care... LIKE SERIOUSLY.. but ok..if i would care about that i would stop blogging.. you see: 

And now i will tell you something very important.. NO IT`s not important, i`m just trying to sound cool :D haha..well i`ve decided that i do not want to study economy.. and i knew it.. YOU DON`t CARE :D

and as you know, halloween is comeing, so here is a fun fact : The ancient Celts thought that spirits and ghosts wondered the streets on all Hallows Eve so they began wearing masks and costumes in order to not be recognized as human :D like seriously??

fail for me...

well i`m thinking that i will not manage to watch all those 20 movies, because i started to watch twilight :D HAHAHA yeah i know, i`ve seen it for many many times, but still.. i love that SAGA :D and i got the junior peak time results...another fail for me.. well.. i knew that it will not be good, but still i had that hope in me.. OH FAIL... anyhow i found a good programme in sweeden.. to study applied mathematics with specialisation in economics..sounds good for me.. but still i don`t know if that is what i want..
I asked my mother to day, what to do with my life..and she said STUDY..and when i told her about valunteering work for one year, she did not say no..she just did not liked that idea..well i tried to explain her, that ot`s all free and stuff, but she was not convinced..that is so stupid that young people like me need to make such a difficult decision [ i just forgot how to spell that word , so i used tilde ] ANOTHER FAIL FOR ME.. i`ve noticed that i fail a lot in past few weeks... OH WELL.. and yeah.. Me and Evija will be the head orgas in Rigas regional session (woohoo) .. so if somebody wants to go to regional session..it will probably be in january...

and i played a lot SUPER MARIO today..and i failed a lot aswell ... i just could not finish level 2.. so lame..

and super mario theme song has stucked to my head FOREVER...

p.s. i watched a bit schinler`s list today.. WELL OMG ...i did not watch it carefully but it was so funny how those germans could just kill people/..there was this scene where the man in the morning was siting after haveing sex and watching how other people work..and than he jjust takes a gun and starts shooting people...LIKE SERIOUSLY??it`s so messed up..and after that i just turned it out..maybe i will try to watch in some other day...that scene kind a reminded me about this game:

ok..BYBY!!!

so true...

"You got to know when to hold`em, know when to fold`em, know when to walk away and know when to run.."

and this is not just a song lyrics.. it`s real life.. you need to know the perfect moment when to lieve..whan to continue and when just never look back. This song is stucked into my had for few days.. since i watched one supernstural episode..i actually forgot about it and than yesterday remembered ...and than i googled youtube and find it...bad idea...i`ve been listening to for par half an hour.. but it`s just so catchy...

and this is an old song...too old and i`m watching the movie video and i just can not understand- do tha Kenny Rogers, who is the author of the song, really know what actually this song is about to others... because the official music video is about westerns and poker playing.. but, in my opinion, there is just a lot more in that..

but the video is funny and the song is AWESOME and if you want to listen to it chack the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z42avv3KBCU

p.s. i`m warning you...it might stick into your head for a long time...

You got to know when to hold`em [when to hold], know when to fold`em [when to fold....]

crossroads...

well i have reached the point of my life when i need to make a decision about what to do with my life...and i was already sure that i`m going to study mathematics and economics...BUT... now i`m no so sure about it... Do i really wana do that for the rest of my life??? My dad said- don`t ruin you cv with latvian education..But i don`t see the point of going to uk, spend a lot of money there and don`t use it for the rest of my life... `AND I DON`T SEE A POINT STUDYING ANYTHING BEFORE I`M SURE OF WHAT I WANT TO DO...

i went to bus stop after SSE open day, and thaught about what i really wana do..what i want to study..and i have no clue.. i know that i can`t just sit and wait for something, but that is exactly what i did before highschool...i never even concidered to study at Riga State Gymnasium No.1 ..i just went one day in the Riga center, saw that school..i reme,bered about that applying to exam was sturted and i just decided to try... and i got in...well i think that i need that kind of moment insight of what i want to do..
because it seems to me that that is the only way have i decide some serious stuff about my life :D it sounds stupid, but i actually believe that until january i will know what i want to do...and if i don`t...well i can always send the aplications to random schools :D

but for now i know for sure that i`m not ready to leave Latvia. I`m not ready to live alone. I`m not ready to decide what i want to do with my life... I`M 18, WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME...

but then i think- will i ever be ready??? it`s terrifying to not know what will happen..but that is life.. so i`ve decided to just go with the flow...and let`s see what happens..

one thing for sure- i want to do something, that i`m passionate about..

paper man

"Do you remember the moment when you realized soup didn't have to come out of a can? You know, all manufactured...That your chicken noodle could kick campbell chicken noodle's ass any day of the week?"
"I think I'm having that moment right now"


no i`m not just now understanding the meaning of life.. I watched one of the best movies i`ve ever seen..Paper man.. and it made me to think about letting go, walking into unknown and continue with your life.. After you`ve been betrayed or something bad has happened, it`s so hard to find the will to live further.. The step into unknown..as terrifying as it is, it`s totaly worth it.. 


There has been times in my life when i think- what`s the point of doing this or that.. well what`s the point of living then, if you do nothing??? I think that only those who try can really succeed.. 


As you may know i`ve always been involved in social life like doing something for others..and when i came to my current school i kind a forgot about the main thing in my life which makes me truly happy.. And only now i understand that i spent 2 years of doing nothing.. Would i turned the time back if i could??definitely not..i did what i did and i do not regret the decisions i made,.. I`m trying to learn from my mistakes..that`s way i`m know in EYP known as Europian Youth parlament..and i`ve been there only for about 1 month but it has made me more happy as i ever was.


anyhow... my dear friend Kristiana [ you may know her as KEI ] told me to say something about pigeon...well she ment our math teacher, but i had a better idea.. My brother has a good friend called Rihards..and his causin also goes in Riga State Gymnasium No.1 so he will go to graduation aswell...so when my brother had his birthday he was so into one song by PIGEON JOHN...and my brothers name is JOHN [ in latvian it would be Janis, but whatever] and Rihard was so amused about it and he said- you know Kate, i will give you a pigeon in your graduation... " and it was in january..and we talked few weeks ago about that, and he is actually quite serious about that gift thing... It will be  a lot of fun, if he will actually give me a pigion...i have no idea what i will do with a BIRD :D 


If life gives you lemons, make  a lemonade...i`m sure i will not cook my pigeon :D

quick blog...

well i just had an idea that i could set a goal for myself for the hollidays..
As those who now me knows that i love to watch movies...So i will watch 20 movies in the following week...

here is a list of them :

well you can see that there is one movie about the clowns..i really do not like them..but i will watcj it anyways :D

wish me luck :D

blogging..

well i just understood that my blogs ar comletaly random...with no deeper meening.. but than i asked my self- why do i wright those blogs.. and my answer was- i do ir because in the end of my senior year i want to remeber what i did... and if i spend all the trome blogging about trying to find answers to questions which actually don`t have unequivocal answer... Like- WHAT IS LIFE?? WHY THE WORLD IS SO EVEL..and so on..

i actually want some proof of what i have accomplished  this year.. or what mistakes i`ve made.. like for an example..I LOST ONE OFE MY FAVOURITE PAIR OF SHOES TODAY :D it was so stupid..i needed to work today, if you don`t know i work in the malls at presentations.. if you do not know what does it means- it means that i`m just standing for 3 hours and giving yougurt samples to people to try them.. so anyway, after my work i needed to take out the garbage and i think that i might put my shoes in the garbahe aswell :D but OH WELL...there is nothing i can do it right now :D

Actually for last 2 weeks i`m living as THE SECRET tells.. i`m trying to avoid bad emotions..and you know what??? IT WORKS.. it`s not like i`m constantly thinking about something and than getting it.. i think i need to have more expirience in SECRET to do all that..but for now i`m just trying to avoid everything bad and take it easy.. my grades actually is going up [except in chemestry, but well, i don`t care :D ], And so that`s the reason why i`m so calm lest weeks.. You can`t avoid negative thing in your life, but you CAN avoid negative feelings. You need to look at things from the positive side. You can`t control the future, but you can control your attitude :)

btw my horoscope told me that ill have my lucky day at 25th of october.. well i doubt that, because i will not go to school, so i don`t think that it will be THAT LUCKY, but we`ll see..maybe i`ll be lucky and i will manage to finish all my homeworks :D YEY :D

i`m planing to watch atleast 15 movies in hollidays :D but i still need to find what to watch :D i know what i will watch today :D STAR STRUCK :D it`s some disnay movie, and i know for sure that it well be crappy :D but this is tha kind of movie i need today :D  I do not know the description but the cover is promising :D

HARRY POTTER IS GAY!!!

well i`m so tired so this everyday post will be a bit short..

today i didn`t went to gig :S that upset me a lot..for multiple reasons.. :/ but anyhow..we had class paryt today and it was awesome.. found where in our school is sauna..so that`s a plus... i did find out a bit more about my classmates.. laughed, aet cookies, drunk a lot of tee.. today i did a lot of conditionals aswell...HELL :D

and chemestry sucks as always.. i think i`m just too dumb for this subject..and what else..my classmates wrote a poem about me :D that was fun... and i hope that everybody had fun, because we tried our best... (sun)

the quote of the day: a get to know party??? you`re in rear 12... don`t you think that it`s a bit late for that?? :D

and know for sure: Harry Potter is gay...want some proof??? here it is: http://www.youtube.com/user/nerimon#p/u/88/5grBzXKKe_E

well i`m going to bed know..need to go to work tomorrow morning...

COFFEE...

SO today was fun..i got a ten in my history test, but 4 at chemestry :D sucks.. :D but who cares..it`s chemestry..sure not gonna use it :D and i went to one completaly useless presentation about studying abroad.. well but at least i went there.. and one more thing..the weather just sucks.. it`s raining, and it`s cold and it`s windy.. oh i miss summer so badly.. :(

one more thing.. es i`m addicted to nerimon and charliesocoolliek at youtube, i wa swatching a couple of minutes back some old alex day [narimon] video where he is drinking coffee for the first time in his life [ link to the video below] and i couldn`t understand WHY HE DIDN`T like it... COFFEE IS TASTY... actually while i  was watching the video I remembered that i haven`t drink a coffee for a long time...that means that i will go and make some (sun) but alex is british..maybe it`s reasonable..tea n stuff.... anyhow..

tomorrow is last train gig.. can`t wait.. :D adn and and...tomorrow is the last day before the holiday..

ph almost completaly forgot.. today i met my old friend..have not seen her for three years and we just met at that presentation..and afterwards we talked a bit and it was nice to meet up and just talk..noce to see old friends..made my day for 100 % !!!!

p.s. i`m so suprised that i`m comleted my goal so far..i`ve posted one post every day so far...hopefuly i will have a strenght to do it in future as well..

anyway..i`m going to make some coffee...

and if u wana see how much alex don`t like coffee --> http://www.youtube.com/user/nerimon?blend=1&ob=4#p/u/78/JZTc_E-p2Sg

only 232 days till the endof my life as a student in high school..

Well today was fun.. Had my physics presentation..FAIL..well i understood everything, but i can`t tell the same about my classmates.. it`s difficult to try to explain when you don`t have any TEACHERS SKILSS..bad for me..

well it`s only 2 days until fall holidays..and I can`t wait friday..i need to work on friday, but in the evening i will go to LAST TRAIN concert..probbably you don`t know this group, and it`s pretty reasonable..so i`m hopeing to have a nice time..

And i`m still trying to find a perfect bracelet for my "21 day without complaining" so if anyone have some great ideas- feel free to tell them...

Another thing.. i`ve been putting off my research about the universities in UK and i`m starting to feel that this is the last minute.. I`ve only 2 month left an i still need to get recomendation from one teacher and i don`t exactly know who to ask..

If you don`t know , i`m planing to study economics and mathematics [ or the other way around] for my bachelor degree, and i`m hopeing on doing that in UK. The best would be if i could study in Essex, but now the Englands government raised their tution fees so don`t know about that.. And Scotland is second best choice..don`t know yet which university..And there is this other thing..next year they will have an election..

Anyhow today i had an argument with my classmate, because she was kinda unreasonable, and the best thing that she could say was- LOOK AT YOUR SELF IN A MIRROR..and i sudenly feeled like i`m in like 5th grade again.. C`MON ..,we`re SENIORS.. just chill..

anyhow..hope a good sleep to you all,..because i`m going to bed..

p.s. here is a picture of what i was doing all evening...exploring cells...sounds like fun :D

Inspiration.

So I was thinking, what to right today, and as it turned out idea came to me. Well there are those 2 guys from youtube. Nerimon [real name Alex] and CHARLIESOCOOLLIKE [Charlie] and i wanted to tell you a bit more about them. Well i don`t know them personaly, but lately they have inspired me alot. This thing about them is that they have been making stupid youtube videos for over 3 years now and they have becamo very popular, but that is not why they are my inspiration object right now.
Not only they are making stupid videos thay are spreading to thw world their point of views an their ideas. They are doing charity work, attending a lot of events. Alex went to Zambia few month ago to help them and stuff, they are doing a lot of amazing things, and it`s just inspiring. They play in band calles Chameleon circus- they sing about Doctor Who- well i didn`t liked that show, but if they do, i`m happy :D And maybe i wouldn`t be so impressed by them if they would be older..but thay`re 20...And that is way it`s inspiring..

And i just watched one nerimons video and actually i`m thinking to try to that. What basically he did, he weare a bracelet for 21 day, and in this time he was forbiden to complain. If in those 21 days he complained he needed to take it of and put on the other hand, and startit all over again. I think it`s very usefull to try to wotk withyourself and your attitude to life. And i`m starting to that, so i`m thinking of trying that.

And btw it`s only 11p.m. and i`m finished with my homeworks..A good feeling it is.. knowing that you can go to bed now.

And i know that this post is not about my senior year, but soon i will tell you something about it, because for now there is nothing much going on. Evija and Me are going to make a some kind of a party to our and A class..hopefully it will be soon.. So if there is anybody out there.. GOODNIGHT

p.s. here ie a picture of Alex and Charlie...

Phyisics..

well today after a long and booring day at school i came home..and around 7 p.m. started my presetation in phyisics...and you know what?? i just finished it.. I know that i`m not making this presentation alone, but that part i needed to make was pretty time-consuming. But at least after 2 long hours of reading the same pages over and over again , i finally have some idea what is three-phase AC circuits.. 


Well i`m feeling tires, but i promissed myself that i will post 1 blog per day, and i`m trying to keep that promise.. And i know it`s already past midnight, but better later than never..


oh i wanted to tell you, I had a nice politics lesson..:D if you know what i mean.. and actually this day was very productive. And i`m starting to think that i`m finally slowly starting to learn how to study. and i`m very proud of myself. Ok this blog is just too random..maybe because it`s too late...12.30 A.M...nice..


ok here is aliitle picture of three-phase AC circuit..and i need to admit, that i don`t understand almost nothing in there,,,but who cares..

p.s. it`s only 4 days until fall break... very excited (sun)

goodnight everybody,[ i`m still convinced that this blog will became one of the least popular blogs :D ]

lalalalalaaa

Hello everybody who might read this. Well i actually didn`t tell anyone that i will start a blog about my senior year in high school.  For your information i would like to tell you about myself a bit more. I`m just an ordinary girl from small country in Europe- Latvia. I currently live in Riga, which is the capital of Latvia. I`m 18 years old right now, and i`m studying at Riga State Gymnasium No. 1, but that is not important. The reason why i`m starting this blog is because i want some proof about my senior year, what i will expirience and so on. If you read this, i need to tell you, that probably my english is not very good, because i`m not a native speaker. So i`m apoligazing about my english. Anyhow, this is my first blog [ or what ever it`s called] so i wanted to introduce with myself. First of all i`m not planning to tell anyone about my blog. And i`m fully aware that maybe in this year noone will never know about it, but who cares. Atleast i will have something to reminisce. Ok maybe i will tell it for some of my closest friends, but that`s all..
Oh about me.. Well the first thing you should know about me is that i like Math..like IT`S fun..Solving problems is fun, aaawww and the feeling when you`re trying to solve something that is completaly unsolvable [ don`t know if it`s even a word] makes you feel good. Well i like the twilight saga..Not in that creepy way how alot of small girls is loveing it, i just like it..I think it`s a good book.. The third that i would like to point out is my passion with informal education. I`ve been involved in this thing for 5 years.. And it`s AWESOME..
i`m starting to think that this is too long for the first blog, but whi cares.. OK I will now end my first blog EVER..so if you`re reading it- FELL LUCKY :D
p.s. about my future blogging [ or whatever it`s called] i`m planing to inform you- nobody about how i live my SENIOR YEAR, what i do, about my plans, friends, party n stuff.. everything..so see you tomorrow [ if i will have time].
p.s.s. maybe you noticed that i like square brackets instead of usual brackets.. :D just a fun fact.. good night world..I know you are out there.